unstable state

      I am rushing for little, unimportant stuffs.              I am strangled by someone, not sure it is me or the someone whom i hate so.
  I want to break out of this place, but I don't know where to.
                                    I am trapped in the rat race which I always thought I can keep myself out of.
           I want to throw the paper at someone's face but I am not good enough for it.
I want to get to somewhere but I wonder when can I get there, or will I ever get there, with my speed.
                                             I can't draw a clear line between "let go" and "give up"
                            I want to live with pride, I might be just being stupid
                                                                 I am easily irritated, also easily entertained
                                    Still... I am still undefined...