25-12-2009

25-12-2009, Christmas Day, which not so Christmas for me so far...

It is 3:26pm 25-12-2009 now.Except this is a public holiday, there is & was nothing I can feel about Christmas now & yesterday. Life just passed on, by a slightly pathetic way.

Maybe it is because I am going to make big changes in life by moving to another environment after 7 yrs in KL? Leaving ppls & habits that I familiar. It was not an easy decision. About 3 months since the decision was made, the sorrows & complex thoughts I had eventually left me merely emptiness & uncertainty. I am not sure what will happen next, I have no idea what to do now. I set up a long term, ambitious plan; because I dunno what I am living for.

Somehow life was not so pathetic for the past few months: I had few bunches of old friends that are still hanging around, 1st job with new colleagues that are nice, a new borned niece that is cute & lovely, family that are close as ever, submitted my not-so-scientific thesis, big vision to boost about, 1st clubbing experience... Life is great! ......Anyway I happen just not in the mood to really appreciate these beauties right now, that's all, bye =.=

AwoOOOoOo~~~

This is my 1st time to the Big Bad Wolf book warehouse sales. The warehouse sales is located @ Amcorp Mall. All the books range from RM3~20.

2nd day of the sales, a public holiday Friday, I was here with Ngeow & Ah Mar at 10am, and the queue was already long~~~ We were eyes-wide-opened because this was our 1st visit to the sales, with really low prices. Though we were not able to find much famous or latest books, we still spent around 70+~100+ individually for the books at around the noon.

2 days later, Ah Mar & Ah Yee asked me to go for the sales again. But this time wasn't so enjoyable, as the books were not much differed from what we saw previously & more messy.

And 2 days after that, I went there again after work... :P Surprisingly there wasn't much people there. The books were less, but were arranged neatly (as compared with 2 days ago). Realising it would be my last visit during this sales, I spent again on the books...

Though I am still not able to find my target books there, I'd spent RM141.00 on 16 books in this sales. Wonder when or whether I can finish these books...

~~ Computer Architecture - A Quantitative Approach ~~ High Performance Embedded Computing ~~ 史记 ~~ Wildlife Warrior (Steve Irwin, 1962-2006) ~~ Darwin's Origin of Species - A Biography ~~ Alexander the Great & the Hellenistic Age ~~ Northern Lights (The Golden Compass) ~~ Eragon ~~ I am Legend ~~ Safari Companions - India ~~ Safari Companions - Kenya ~~ Computer Organization & Design ~~ The Blood Brothers ~~ Moby-Dick (compact version) ~~ The Asian Renaissance ~~ Mothers & Sons ~~

This Is It

This Is It... Last glimpse we have on MJ. Unable to get someone really interested for the movie, I simply out of sudden went to IOI mall, got myself a popcorn, n caught d show by myself. Surprisingly, the cinema was only half full, and I got a seat K13, right at the middle of entire cinema by myself.

"This Is It" is about MJ's rehearsal & making of his "never-to-be" final concerts. The "movie" started with few minutes about MJ announcement for his concert "This Is It", recruiting for dancers, and then the scenes of MJ's on-stage rehearsal cut in without further craps. The legendary hits... the songs about humanity & earth... & even some songs that I can hardly name them out (Well I am not his superfans afterall), I almost wanted to close my eyes to enjoy the songs, yet I couldn't bear to leave out any scene of dances & effects on the screen. Nevertheless, classics scenes of Zombies & ghosts dancing in "Thriller", street fight scenes in "Beat It", touching videos in "Earth Song", & every single performance. And the dance moves, OMG, just couldn't believe that he was 50-yrs old. Too bad I just got myself a "s" popcorns, it ran out even before "Thriller" came in.

Throughout the rehearsal, MJ was really involved with every arrangements, musics, effects, timings... I seriously have to take my hat off for his dedication for performance. For his speeches for Earth, humanity & children, you may call them "just for publication", but they can be really touch. This is what he intended to say about environment problem somewhere near the end of concert (Well I can't memorize them completely, so I just kinda rephrase it):
"... People always say "The government will figure out what to do." "They will do something about it." But who are they? It's us. ..."

No scene to remind you "He passed away, so sad...", "He is not gonna be around anymore", or "He was most popular superstar at 80's & 90's" (Even among superstars, he was still the shiniest). This movie is merely a gentle goodbye we have from this MJ (Ok, maybe it is also a money making thing to clear his debt, but enjoying big screen that almost showed a concert with only a movie ticket cost, I think it's really worth it for MJ's fans :P)

By the time the shows ended & the words came out on dark background, I only realized that a lot of his hits (more than I expected) were written by himself. Finally when even the dark background part was ended, there were me, a few Chinese college students, 2 Indian guys, & a Malay uncle with his nieces & nephews still inside the cinema. I guess great musics, performances & artworks really linked different races together... :P

Lastly, after the show, I think MJ is not dead, he is always with all of us who got & who gets inspirations from his songs. And for me, I will go on with these inspirations for my dream.

"... If You Wanna Make The WorldA Better Place;
Take A Look At Yourself, AndThen Make A Change ..."
(Man In The Mirror, Written & Performed by Michael Jackson)

Still going on...

It's been almost 1 month I commence my 1st job. Somehow I still think I cannot handle a lot of things. Some tasks that were taught I still forgot how to do. And some emails that I have no idea what was it about, yet I was in the mailing loop. I tried to pick up fast but most d time I missed out something when executing tasks alone. Maybe I am not half as good as I though I am. Somehow I am still trying... because I dun think I can conquer d world if I am being stopped at this level...

Anyway, so far the colleagues are nice. And almost entire Dept. knew that I'll be leaving. But it is not really an issue as everyone seems cool & sometimes still joking with it (even my senior). The only 2 things I'd like to complain now are 1st, the separated systems & databases used by diff. dept. are really confusing, & sometimes conflicting. 2nd, the coffee machine is only up n running @ bout 1030am every morning!!! >_< ......I sincerely hope the company will do something bout d 2nd issue soon. T___T

Moi Birthday

first of all: I hope I din spell the word "moi" wrongly in french (meaning "my"), Sophea?

OK, this is about my early bday celeb with you guys on last Sat @ Sakae Sushi, Sunway. So fast that I am already 26 & spent about 7 yrs at Selangor. And the peoples in the photos below, I had knew them for about 3 yrs, and had uncountable memories since then... The faces seem the same as the day I knew them, but so much had happened on each of us. From struggling together last time, till struggling individually now... (Still struggling, so pathetic =.=) But what I want to say is that, even the good n bad we had together do not return, I hope that we will all still have each other side by side (mentally gua) at now & future. Thanks & love you guys :)

@ Sakae Sunway

Are you ready yet, Sophea...?

This escalator in Sunway suddenly became our favourite shooting spot recently... :P
A nice finish~ Thanks & all the best~

A Wedding in Kuantan

I had just went to Yit Wei's wedding at Kuantan last weekend. During Sat morning, while waiting other frens to reach from Penang, I had terrible headache & running-ass... it was so terrible that for 0.5 moment that I was thinking not to go for d trip.... N luckily that was not my final decision n I attended d wedding :)

Instead of attending wedding, this was more like a grand reunion of the MMU gang @ Kuantan. This is d night b4 wedding, where we went for d open house at d bride house. Later that night we had a drink-out night at d rented house - a bottle of 40+% alcohol... mixed with Pepsi & Soda. Too bad we not able to get d bridegroom drunk.
2nd morning, all up and ready to go n get d bride~
The bargains...


DEAL!!
And Finally....

At the very night, it was a poolside wedding dinner @ .......I forgot the hotel name, something starts with "S" at seaside...
Here we are ready to go for dinner... Since it was a poolside dinner, everyone at first said we dun have to wear so formal... N I guess I was d only 1 so innocent to believe such words.... =_="

Here comes d bridegroom & bride~~
Finally married~~~
All d best wishes for 2 of you, YW n BH... Hope you will be happily ever after :)

Tell me why~

Actuall what is a blog for? A diary to record what I had done? To share what I am thinking? To share what I am feeling? How do I do if I wanna speak out what I am thinking and feeling, direct and naked, let somebody knows what is in my mind; but at the mean time don't let "somebody" knows what is in my mind?

Maybe if I just ignore the "somebody" then I will not have this problem. IF ONLY I am able to ignore the "somebody"...... I wouldn't be having the troubles and writing this post at all... :(

Tell me why~~~ ......

two-timing

I promised her to stay by her side. But right after this sacred commitment, another her appeared right in front me, shinning and attractive. She whom I gave my promise showed me light when I was in darkness; while she who appeared later was taking my breath. The former her was giving me a peacful life at somewhere I familiar; while the latter her shall take me away from all I had right now. I am totally indecisive, caught between morality and excitement, peaceful living and achievement.

Given the chance, perhaps I will choose to chase the star, away from what I had right now. I am not very sure. However, WD or Intel, whichever decision it will be, it shall be a painful one...

Job?

Being jobless for past 7 months and "interview-less" for past 3 months, out of sudden got 2 interviews in 1 day at 09/09/09 (d special day for a lot of ppl). 1st interview at OYL, Shah Alam, Japan company, lower pay, n will get back to me in 2 weeks if 2nd interview is available. 2nd interview at WD, PJ, better pay than OYL, doing things I not interested in long run (and which I dunno how to doin short run), and urgently need of ppl.

2 days later, which is today. I got the call from headhunter company that WD is interested to hire me. Suddenly I am deep in consideration:
1. I dunno much bout programming (for that job) but I can learn
2. The job scope is routine n seems unattractive in long run
3. I need a job n I need money now
4. Will next job comes if I turn this down? (reminder: no interview for past 3 months)
5. What if I work there 1st then looking for better opportunity at the mean time?

I haven't really make up my mind. The package details should come in Monday. By then, hopefully I can determine what to do for now -.-''

there's just something about maple

Yes, our Melsasa had brought back some Maple products from the country of maples, Canada. I tried the maple cookie yesterday. Somehow the maple doesn't taste like what I expected, which I thought it will taste sentimental... I repeat, "SENTIMENTAL". And NO, the maple did not taste this way. Instead, it was a quite sweet, and a little wood taste. And John said this is how maple tastes. So I guess instead of tasting sentimental, the maple tastes... maple =.=

I dunno how I get the idea of "maple = sentimental", Sophea said maybe it is because red maple is connected to autumn. However these are not important... something special then happened last night...

While I was chatting with Bee Eng, the wind from fan is blowing the pages of my book on the table. So I took a 50-cent coin to press on the paper, with d "Wau" (kite) side facing upwards. And suddenly, I wondered why wouldn't the kite fly, as the fan is blowing at it. =.= Of course it took me less than a second to realise the kite is on d coin and it can't fly. But I was still thinking that a kite should fly with wind, and so is THAT kite... -.-''

Moments later, I flipped over the coin, and for the 1st time, I was starring at the Hibiscus for a few seconds. What's wrong with me!?!?!? ><

Is it the maple cookie that bring out my sentimental self? Haha... we will see tonight, since I had maple tea this afternoon. (Yes, from Melsasa too, and again it tasted maple rather than sentimental.)

p.s: Feeling hungry, maybe due to the maple tea just now @_@

The good, the bad, the unknown

Good things:
My sister-in-law had just gave birth to my little niece on 30 Aug. My niece's name is not confirmed yet. My brother n wife wanted to put d name as "Yin3 Xi1" but they wanted to let the fortune teller to check whether the name is suitable or not. (And my brother actually don't remember how to write the "Yin3" in Chinese, that's why my niece's name still remains mystery to all of us.)

Bad things:
As soon as I got back to SK yesterday, I found that my speaker at house were spoiled. Second day, when i got to lab, I found that my PC's hardisk wasn't running.

Unknown:
Continue sending resumes, n Woei Yean offered to help me search for some lobang he might know. Good or bad? I cannot tell, but hope to get a job soon enough.

Agitated

I hate things getting out of controls... especially my controls. When I can't get things done, when I can't figure out why, when things dun happen the way that "I suppose they should work", when it seems like no matter what I do it is just wrong, when it seems like only me having the problem & I have absolutely no idea why is this happening... I freak out =.=

However, as time goes by, the "freak-out-time" is getting shorter. I dunno it is because I can let it go easier or it is because I get used to the failures. Somehow the freak-out still happens every now and then, yes, when things get out of MY controls.

Some said we need to let go and put down. I do understand but this thing is like ghost (or true love) -> which everyone talking about it but almost none really seen it. In addition, simply "let go" n "put down" what cannot be achieved does somehow sounds a little not so cool to me...

Whatsoever, I prefer the quote from starwar, "Fear leads to anger, and anger leads to darkness." I guess I am an angry kid because of my fear. Fear about things unpredictable n target unachievable. I have to overcome my fear, then maybe I wont freak out so easily. Most importantly, this quote sounds much cooler than "let go" n "put down"!!! XD

So, now, I am telling myself for the uncountable time since the 1st time I told myself this. Overcome the fear of losing it, then only you will get to the next level.


(today's blog is still unorganized & unpresentable, but I am trying ok?)

Untitled 1st blog

Testing, testing... blog attempt: 1. Ready? Roll!!!

Today is not the 1st day that I ever feeling like starting a blog. If I haven't create an account and start these typing, this is nothing but just another day I feel like to start a blog. Maybe this is what I suppose to do, "Don't always think, think, think; just do, do, do!" (quoted somewhere from "How I Met Your Mother") We are always thinking, but never do. In fact, we always reminding others n ourselves about this theory, but we never put it into action. Fear n laziness, that's all it takes for most of our "un-action". Maybe sometimes we just need a little courage (or lost of sense) to take d step off d cliff.

Now, I am not a good narrator n I am stuck here. Who cares? Maybe I might not even update this blog again. Wahahahaahaha >:)

(p.s: Thx to Christine who provided some info on the spot to start this blog :P)