Agitated

I hate things getting out of controls... especially my controls. When I can't get things done, when I can't figure out why, when things dun happen the way that "I suppose they should work", when it seems like no matter what I do it is just wrong, when it seems like only me having the problem & I have absolutely no idea why is this happening... I freak out =.=

However, as time goes by, the "freak-out-time" is getting shorter. I dunno it is because I can let it go easier or it is because I get used to the failures. Somehow the freak-out still happens every now and then, yes, when things get out of MY controls.

Some said we need to let go and put down. I do understand but this thing is like ghost (or true love) -> which everyone talking about it but almost none really seen it. In addition, simply "let go" n "put down" what cannot be achieved does somehow sounds a little not so cool to me...

Whatsoever, I prefer the quote from starwar, "Fear leads to anger, and anger leads to darkness." I guess I am an angry kid because of my fear. Fear about things unpredictable n target unachievable. I have to overcome my fear, then maybe I wont freak out so easily. Most importantly, this quote sounds much cooler than "let go" n "put down"!!! XD

So, now, I am telling myself for the uncountable time since the 1st time I told myself this. Overcome the fear of losing it, then only you will get to the next level.


(today's blog is still unorganized & unpresentable, but I am trying ok?)

Untitled 1st blog

Testing, testing... blog attempt: 1. Ready? Roll!!!

Today is not the 1st day that I ever feeling like starting a blog. If I haven't create an account and start these typing, this is nothing but just another day I feel like to start a blog. Maybe this is what I suppose to do, "Don't always think, think, think; just do, do, do!" (quoted somewhere from "How I Met Your Mother") We are always thinking, but never do. In fact, we always reminding others n ourselves about this theory, but we never put it into action. Fear n laziness, that's all it takes for most of our "un-action". Maybe sometimes we just need a little courage (or lost of sense) to take d step off d cliff.

Now, I am not a good narrator n I am stuck here. Who cares? Maybe I might not even update this blog again. Wahahahaahaha >:)

(p.s: Thx to Christine who provided some info on the spot to start this blog :P)